Wednesday, April 02, 2008
for the whole night yest,ive been doing loads of thinking.as usual,it has always been the why,why,why and why.why are people so cruel to me?why are people always taking advantage of me?am i not being kind enough that they dont like it so they take advantage?or is it because im being very kind thats why they take advantage?so,to answer that question and to prevent myself from getting hurt any longer,i shall not be kind anymore.i gave you everything and this is what i get?is these the only thing i deserve?you said i compare.fine.my fault again.so to prevent myself from getting hurt further,i shall not feel anymore.harden up my feelings.i shall not have feelings anymore.why should i have feelings when people keep on taking advantage of me,not appreciating what i have done for them?they say do things sincerely.when you do things sincerely,you dont ask for return.well,let me ask you.if the person keep on asking favours from you just because he wants it,shall i do it sincerely and let him make use of me everytime?all the time?forever?i want be the Robin Hood.i dont know.maybe im just not good enough.why?because if i were to continue being like Robin Hood,one day,i shall kill myself.i cant take it.which one should i choose?or should i learn which one to do it sincerely and the other one to fuck care about it?whatever it is,im just waiting to die.i had enough of living.
& van_inariahkh signed off @ 8:35 AM