Sunday, March 05, 2006
haiz..
ive been thinkin thru d days..
im sorry if i have accused you..
seriously..
im very sorry..
im sayin sorry not bcoz im beggin u 2 cum back to me..
no..
dats not d reason y..
im sayin sorry bcoz i think im in the wrong..
n i cant b bothered..
im not bothered with my life anymore..
since d day yyou left me..
that is the day when i left this world..
this life..
i am not the person whom you know anymore..
but you are still the same..
i have done a big sin..
bigger than anyone else..
that is to break up your family..
i have thought..
why must it be you..
why not other SInGLE guy..
you are married..
you have your wife..
you have your children..
while i can never have any of those..
im not interested of havin any of those anymore..
i had done some soul searching..
with the 2 days you have given to me..
i have come to a decision..
i am willing to leave you if it will make things lots easier for you..
leave you so you wont stress yourself out..
so you wont have trobles..
not because i dont love you anymore..
from the start,i could never get you out of my head..
not even a second..
while i sleep,while i eat,while i watch tv,while i bath,while im in school..
that is how much you mean to me..
i dont want you to suffer just because of me..
i would rather we remain like this forever than you having to divorce your wife and marry me..
seriously..
i would rather have a person who is poor but would share ups and sowns with me..
than a person who buy me everything i want and just keep everything to himself..
love is sharing each others feelings..
not letting just one person suffer..
i would rather love you in the dark..
its much more better than having you messaging me only when you feel like it..
it hurts twice more to know you hide something from me than you tell me straight whats in your heart..
now all the decision is for you to make..
whatever your decision is,
no matter if the world ends,
im still loving you..
i dont know why..
but my heart is just for you..
but i just feel you cant be bothered by it..
i dont know.
because you just keep everything to yourself..
& van_inariahkh signed off @ 6:19 PM