haiz...so cpnfused..lost...
Monday, April 11, 2005
haiz...deres so many things dats been goin on..im so cant b bothered...i cant evn b bothered abt my life..i feel like im juz a burden 2 dis world...it sukz..someone sufferin juz bcoz of me..i dont like it...
papa has been havin slpless nite...i noe deres sumtin worryin him..but wen i ask he say ntg..its ok if he don 1 2 share...but it hurts me..u cant hide anything 4rm anyone...in d end,ull still noe d truth...so..yes i did,,,hes still worryin abt me...on sumting...i dono how i felt...it gt mixed..sadness...angry...dissapointed...haiz....am i a burden 2 him?i tink so i am..but i don wish 2 tell this 2 him...i don tink he can take it...im so lost n confused...
2nd ly....my parents r very irritaing...mom nag 24hrs...being so unreasonable..im controllin my anger...i hpw i can control...i was so fed up n angry till i cry...i feel like stabbin myself 2 death...i cant take it..i wish i can haf sum peace...1 calm down..but she didnt gif me dat..n father, hes like being a satan..,make my mom scold me more...irritate me...its so fuck...
i wish i don haf any parents at all...i wish i am an orphan....yes....u can tell me being an orphan make life miserable coz dey don haf parents love...i don haf dem....i try 2 love dem but in d end i end up hatin dem more...
im confused n lost...i dono wad 2 do...
n sorry bro..i use ur laptop...i haf 2 do my research 4 my coursework...d computer is irritaing...gt prob again...juz wish i can hammer it....so sorry...
& van_inariahkh signed off @ 10:24 PM